Found this one I typed up way earlier in the summer on my BB .. And since its still relevant.. Enjoy!
I spend a lot of time thinking about love, relationships, and even feeling down about not being in one when almost everyone I know is boo’ed up. I tell myself, “don’t chase, attract.” Or even, “you’re not going to find it. It will find you.” And I do believe it all, but it doesn’t stop the loneliness or give you some attention right when you need it..Not everyday do I feel like this, but often enough..
Well, I was talking to Haqq one day and I repeated something I said to my (guy)friend Jay, “I hope I haven’t met the person I’m supposed to be with yet. The idea that a. We had a go ’round already that didn’t work or b. I have this awesome person in my life and don’t know it is freaky.. I mean isn’t that valid? Wouldn’t those two things kinda suck? Anywho, So Haqq asked me how believeable is that? The likelihood that I’ll meet someone new and marry them is slimmer than me making it work with someone already in my life and how that’s often a popular story. “I knew him for so many years and one day boom we came together.”So its possible that my one of my fears is going to happen .. So I amended my thought, like yeah, your probably right. I hope I haven’t at least already dated him.
Does anyone see the problem here? I didn’t at first, but then I thought later, why sell yourself short Cleo? What is UP with that? Why isn’t it realistic that I haven’t met him.. Not to invalidate her point but .. I should have stuck with mine.. But IF one of them is. I hope its someone great and I haven’t realized it yet because I’m watching / helping him grow…
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I know I’ve been taking so many hiatuses from blogging that people probably don’t even check here anymore .. but I spent some time thinking about WHY I haven’t been utilizing my site …
I came to the realization that it was a combination of many things .. but one that stuck out was that I struggled with my identity as a blog/blogger … One of the first questions people ask when they hear you have a blog/webiste is ” What kind of blog is it?” And I always felt like I had to try and put my blog in a box … People didnt get that it was just me, a mix of everything I love. Fashion, personal stories, news stories I was struck by and just a complete mix of randomness. That doesn’t quite fit in a category. . . and the whole thing about paying for a site that doesn’t make money .. I felt I needed to pick a category, do it well, and try to prosper… It lost its orignal appeal to me.
I started this blog at first as Desire’s Inspiration on wordpress.com and eventually transferred everything here to Cleo Sunshine to create a brand, but I lost the reason I started it. I started it to vent, to get out to write. I had just graduated college with my BA in Journalism and Media Studies and I still enjoyed writing a lot even if I hadn’t gotten a job in the field. This was my outlet. My place to showcase my skill and opinion about topics relevant to me. And I’ve realized I am my brand. Not the topic I write about. I am the reason people would read my blog..
I want to get back to that … Part of is that I do realize some people do read it, and I always get comments from people, via twitter, facebook, or the comment section on the posts that I just wrote from the heart, whether about music, fashion, or whatever. I want to get back to the basics .. I am not an authority on any subject or field here in this blog world, I’m just me. A Jersey girl who likes so many different things I can’t begin to describe it all
I’ve learned that life can be really simple when you take a moment to do that. Back 2 Basics. And I really want to do that here. More living. More sharing. More blogging..
Lately, being a single girl who’s not opposed to dating courtship has been on my mind A LOT! Mostly because I just feel the people I meet aren’t doing it right! But some do! Something happened last night that made me think of a great blog entry . So here goes …
Recently a gentleman opened my car door for me. Shocked me. I wasn’t used to such displays of chivalry but i ran with it. And I wanted to reach over and open his door, but of course he had automatic locks. And it made me think of the “Car Door Test” described by Sonny in a Bronx Tale. Not familiar? Peep the video ::
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Pretty much, what Sonny tells his nephew is this: If you want to know if the girl is a good girl, a keeper, you open her car door for her. You walk around the BACK of the car and peek in. If she’s not reaching over to flip the lock for you, DUMP HER! This comes after he just gave him a spiel about don’t worry about what others think. Clearly Uncle Sonny never anticipated automatic locks and key less entry. -___-
So what do you do for the guy who still opens the car door for you?
I have a young man who comes and talks to me. I recently met him in the professional capacity but he’s quite promising as young man and I wish him the best. He was in my office telling me how he met this DOPE girl from Chicago and he really wanted to get to know her and good first date ideas. I thought it was SOOOO cute!!! I blushed FOR her! But we got to talking about texting and dating. Now I’m a frequent texter but not the the extreme and I told him that nothing beats conversation. Phone or in person. I said I don’t know if its because I’m on the brink of the text generation. People weren’t texting out of style when I was in high school, so you HAD to talk to the person either on the phone or in person. I shared a person experience of a recent potential suitor who’s trying to have a text message relationship. So he said what’s appropriate texting with someone you don’t know yet? I thought for a minute .. and I said ,
Well, you ask a few casual questions, but I think it should be to set up a face to face interaction. Whether its to grab coffee at Starbucks or go bowling or walk through the park, you want to really get to know someone. Or even ask if they are available to talk on the phone. I also understand not everyone is a phone talker, but everyone is a face to face talker, unless you’re a social reject.
He thought for a minute and said, “yeah, I think that’s a good idea. I’m gonna do that.” I was pleased. More young men need to be saved. This conversation was with my friend about dating and courtship and just recognizing BS. Its a dog – eat – dog world out there.. and some purebreds are losing.
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