06Aug 2012 by Jakora Holman No Comments
Open letter

Open letter

Lifestyle
Dear love, It's not that I don't want to believe in you, its just that I don't know how to believe in you. Outside of fairy tales and movies you haven't been present in my life. The times I thought I found you, you were blocked by insecurity, infidelity, and insanity. Yes, insanity because I went crazy trying to hold on to what I thought was you. In that crazed time, I missed it when you quietly walked out the door and left me because I wasn't ready. I want us to have a fresh start. I want to get rid of the damage in the past. I want to have trust in you and faith that when I find you, the REAL you, I won't mistake you for lust…
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30Oct 2011 by Jakora Holman No Comments
The Head, the Heart & the Vagina

The Head, the Heart & the Vagina

Mis-Adventures
Did you know that you inherently speak three different languages? Yes, its true. Or at least I do. My head speaks English. And it understands cause and affect among other rational thoughts. My heart speaks spanish. It's confusing. If you don't use it, you kinda forget it. It has all these verbs that need conjugating. And my vagina speaks English. But not traditional English like my head. It's more of how Audrey II , the plant from Little Shop of Horrors speaks English. Without really knowing consequences or about feelings. Got it? Ok  Good… Why am I talking about this? Honestly? I have no idea, the thought just came to me. But I think its valid given my current situation. I feel like when I'm impatient (or really horny) I…
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05May 2011 by Jakora Holman No Comments

All i Need in this life of sIn

Lifestyle
I once had a friend who's email address was love_less_j , funny because we weren't even 21 when she had such an email address. Why would she call herself love_less before giving love a fighting chance in her life? Life had barely begun and she was naming her destiny.. The other night I was watching Khloe & Lamar on E (we all know their story-married within a month and focus of lots of media scrutinty) and it got me thinking about people who give themselves to love freely. I don't think what they feel for each other is a TV spectacle. When Lamar cradled Khloe on the floor while she cried about her weight issues and comforted her, that was love !! It bought my thoughts to a coworker I…
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